Charlotte / osprey

Characteristics: "I am independent, flighty (as in, I can't settle for too long, with people, places, ideas, opinions) but when I have something I want, I'll defend it strongly. I'm artistic, creative, a bit of a dreamer. I love to travel, I like to be by the sea, but I don't like stress. I hate being rushed. I love home comforts, having a lie-in, spending time with family. I like being outdoors at night (I like the smell). I'm quite tactile, I like hugs."



Characteristics: "Other people say that I'm quite persevering and I don't give up quickly. I'm trying at something until I don't succeed. Well, exception is math. Next things: silent and calm person who hates competition. In sports it's nice to be first but being leader in class... That's not for me. I'm rather somewhere in the middle with ordinary people, there, where nobody really notices you and where you can live without big responsibilities and worries. Also I know where my place is in society and I can recognize which person has higher authority than me. Loud noises are very disturbing for me. I hate everything in connection with them. Even rock concerts.

There is no bigger loner than me. I'm a hermit. If I'm in company (with other people, not family, because I'm with them 24/7) I prefer to be with one or two closest friends. More than two friends and I'm starting to feel very uncomfortable. Also I don't like physical contacts. Even a kiss or hug for birthday with my relatives or friends is very very annoying. But that doesn't count for my family (with them I mean my parents, grandmother and sister). I'm probably more of a family girl. But sometimes I'm sad because of loneliness.

I think loneliness is the reason why I'm so shy and not so self-confident. The biggest torture for me is speaking in front of the class. I'm also obstinate and I like doing things on my own. I hate working in groups and I think that it's better if I work alone or with just one partner. I ask for help only then, when it's really necessary and there's no other way. My view of the world is sometimes pessimistic and sometimes optimistic. Yet most of the time it's artistic. In clouds I can see different shapes, I admire the color of the sky and I'm in love with streams, sound of water, wind in trees and stormy clouds. Real happiness I feel only when I'm drawing or reading. This is my only escape from the real world.

I'm a ''night bird'." When I was on vacation, my father said, "The more the sun goes down, the more happy you are." That's true. Because of that I'm sleepy by day. Well, not the whole day, but only from time to time and during math class. Very disturbing characteristic is that I'm often nervous. Sometimes without a reason. One reason: I can complicate simple things and then become nervous. I'm also moody from time to time. In one moment I can become angry like hell, but a moment later I'm already depressed or happy.

This thing with anger...I'm trying not to show it. Yet sometimes I'm scattering it in all ways, being all pissed off. I strike back only when I'm challenged and if that's necessary. It happens that I fight too, but that's very rare. To fight I must be so angry that I feel hot blood in my veins."



Characteristics: "I'm a born hypocrite and pathological liar. Despite this, I have a strong honour code, which I attempt to adhere to (though often fail). I'm known as a very snide, sarcastic, and cold to the general public, holding people at an arms length and being very enigmatic. Within my friends, I will either act as the slightly exasperated, prideful mother bear that points out the flaws in plans of action and keeps anyone from getting arrested; or I will take the role as jokester, being outrageous, bizarre (perverse at times), very wry, sarcastic, and eccentric. When I fit the latter of the roles, I concentrate on getting others to laugh and open up remarkably. I become much kinder and sympathetic to the feelings of others, and try to get everyone involved. I can be a bit irritating with my bounds of energy, but I keep things upbeat.

On the inside, I strive to be sincere and honourable, but often fall into the habit of half-truths and exaggerating things, I'm extremely emotional and prone to anxiety and bucket loads of guilt. I want to become the steadfast, dependable, yet ambitious (I'm renown for being lazy), hard working and truly loyal person I see in others. Extremely pessimistic of my own qualities and very self-critical. Because I'm hailed as a genius, I work to earn such a title and not have the faith in me misplaced.

I'm very artistic--I don't know what I'd do without my pencil or bass guitars. I love theatre, music, painting, etc. I'm something of a scatterbrain, and I want to do everything at once. I don't need to be pretty, as I can create and imagine things that make up for my ugliness, and I spend most of my time in a world of pretend. I often regard my intelligence as a fault. I can see all the things wrong with me and I am unable to change them, which frustrates me to no end.

Though generally calm and collected, I can get frustrated when I do not pick things up immediately, and become very critical of others and myself, and extremely emotional. I bottle things inside and will explode every once and a while, entirely out of pride. I bear burdens on my own, not willing to go to others, but expecting them to come to me. I often play the role of mother in my family and friends, and (though selfish in the mundane) place their needs far above mine. I'm very hard to get to know, but I am willing to die for the people I cherish, and until that day arrives, content with living for them.

I'm also extremely narcissistic, as evidenced by this spiel."



Characteristics:
"1. I get angry over the littlest of things if said or done in a specific way.
2. I never express my feelings to anyone. Part of the reason for this is that sometimes I don't know what I am feeling! The other reason is that I don't know what other people's reactions would be and whether they would think less of me because of it.
3. I don't trust easily especially strangers. I trust my friends but even then there are some things that I keep from them, or would rather do on my own.
4. I like to be alone. When I get home from school I go to my room. I don't particularly like the company of the rest of my family (except my mother) so I stay on my own. They usually ask why I do this and I get really mad and upset that they don't understand why. I do sometimes like to go out with friends but not too often.
5. When I am on my own I think a lot. Usually about my life.
6. I long to have a life of importance, to be known by other people for something I've done and remembered. Famous if you will.
7. When I'm with my friends I am very social, telling jokes and so forth, but when I'm away from then I am very quite. I don't speak to anyone unless spoken to.
8. I am very sporty. I love to play and watch sports. Mostly athletics and football (soccer).
9. When I see something that looks good or that I want I must have it. I can usually think of nothing else until I have it. I usually don't stop to think it through, so when I do get it I sometimes feel let down, that it's not as good as I had previously thought.
10. I have very compulsive tendencies. I don't know why but I do. e.g. I don't like different sorts of food to touch on a plate like spaghetti and fries.
11. I don't share. I feel that what's mine is mine and should not be used by others. I have a few exceptions like for my friends but even then I feel so adverse to it I almost say no.
12. I don't like to travel. I like where I live and my house. I don't even like to go on holiday (vacation). ((Exceptions: Skiing and Florida)). People find this baffling and again I get angry when asked why I don't like it.
13. I do things mostly for personal gain. The only reason I would do something otherwise is because it helps a friend (which in turn helps me) or if I am told by a higher authority.
14. I often daydream about various things, but the one that I dream the most is that something is destroying the earth and only by me sacrificing my life will it be beaten.
15. My humor is usually sarcastic and usually aggressive to certain racial/ethnic groups.
16. My mood can change in a second. One minute I can be happy and laughing and the next I can be very serious. This is generally down to something someone has done/said.
17. I get easily frustrated when I explain something to someone and they don't get it.
18.I get bored easily.
19.I am incredibly competitive. if I am against someone for anything I will give 100% to show them up and win no matter who it is.
20. Very paranoid. Always thinking someone is talking about me or laughing at me.
21. I am very aware of my surroundings.
22. I will fight for what I believe in no matter who it goes against.
23. My memory is somewhat weird. I have a brilliant long term memory but a terrible short term.
24. I am quite clever or so I'm told, but that's nothing compared to most of my friends. They're all geniuses. I can't stand stupid, self-centered, loud mouth, arrogant people.
25. I can usually never make up my mind when it comes to decision making. I usually go along with whatever my friends do even if it's something I don't particularly want to do.
26. Finally I am a very hard person to figure out. I doubt that even my closest friend knows the real me. I tend to let people find out for themselves rather then tell them."



Characteristics: Curious; Gets along well with certain people; Intelligent; Despised by some; Able to find loopholes (weasel my way out of things); Hides some things from people; Hard to keep on one track; Mind tends to wander; Can go from realistic to fantasy thoughts in seconds; A little rough; Sometimes hides true personality from people; Occasionally lies; Loyal to friends; Don't know my own strength; Don't like to be ordered around; Solitary; Has idle fantasies; Daydreams; If something is too hard, boring, or easy, I am likely to say "screw it."; Has trouble telling who my friends are; I easily get into a battle of wills



Characteristics: "I'm always working on a new project although I'm not the type to be working on several projects at a time. One or two at the most; usually I just stop and go with different things, such as my website and my music. (Which, speaking of, my dad got me an iPod for my birthday present. Sweet!)

To help keep me focused, I like to have a basic routine to my days. When taking care of my pets, I usually tend to their needs in the same order. There are a couple things I always must do unless I'm especially busy and I have a number of places I walk my dogs and I simply choose which one I want to walk that day.

I'm an introvert at heart although in my teenage years, I enjoy light socializing. But overall, I find the whole social scene silly and pointless so I'm typically an outsider to most people and don't fit into clicks. Honestly, I don't care. When I find those few who are like me and share the same interests and traits, I am a loyal friend who has the desire to talk to them and spend fun times together.

I am very, and I mean very laid back. It's hard to get me angry and I easily forgive. Although I'm stiff with new people I rarely meet someone I dislike. I'm terrible at hiding my true emotions and I am easily hurt although I've grown more tough in my teenage years. I remember if someone pulled a prank on me, I would take that personally. I'm still a little bit like that; I don't like false friends or people who like to overly tease.

Believe it or not, I'm a natural leader. A laid back leader, but when things aren't moving along at an activity or even at home, I step in and begin giving orders which usually come across as bold suggestions. Rather than dilly-dally, I get right to responsibilities and assignment. Irresponsible people who don't take these things seriously annoy me although I let them do what they want.

My attitude toward life is 'if I mess up today, there's always tomorrow.' Although life lessons are hard, I value and rejoice in the things I learn through the hard times. I love to write my thoughts in my journal; it helps make them much more clear and understandable. 'Life is good' is my motto; I rarely complain about what I have been given and lately I don't feel the need for change or excitement. I relish in the things around me whether it be nature, home, or people. I take notice of the smallest things and glory in it, such as which direction the wind is blowing, how the sun shines from behind the clouds, and a chuckling creek flowing past.

I try not to grow prideful and listen to other people's opinions with all meekness. I'm always looking for ways to improve myself without growing frantic or worried. As long as I feel right with God, everything else falls into place. I make sure His spirit, the Holy Ghost, is with me so I can be inspired by it and make decisions based off of what I feel in my heart. I tackle projects and trips with enthusiasm and enjoy just going outside of my home, even if it's just to Wal Mart.

Random Things:

I love to think of stories. If I'm on a road trip, I can just sit and think of stories for hours without growing bored. In my brain I have dozens of these stories that I have thought of over the years. Whenever I feel like it, I take out an older story and think about it again, almost like watching an old movie!

I love music of all sorts, with or without lyrics, rock, pop, classical, anything! If a know a song well and I hear it playing, a certain color automatically pops into my head. Depending on the mood, instruments, and beat of the song, a different color comes into mind. For example, Can't Take It In from the Narnia movie is light blue.

Things I Have Not Told You Yet:

When I was very young, under the age of eleven, I had my head in the clouds. I sometimes did things which I knew was wrong, like steal candy from the closet, but it never registered in my mind that I shouldn't do it. It's hard to describe, but I was a very happy child growing up. It was at the age of eleven, almost twelve, that I came somewhat out of the clouds. At around the age of thirteen, I found myself fully on earth. But I still have some attributes from those head in the cloud days, such as my stories."